We did church last night to leave open seats for someone else this morning. It is nice to wake up on a Sunday and make blueberry pancakes, hang out, relax with coffee and just "be". I've scanned facebook and many are declaring "He is risen" and my funny husband posted, "One guy gets up early and everyone makes a fuss" or something like that...
Easter is truly the day I hold on to rebirth, resurrection of great things, and a sense of new beginnings in the air. I'm in a mental place where I feel God moving and I'm still not sure of His direction. A simpler life is what I miss. You know, when walking and biking were a big part of the day. When my house was clean and I wasn't as rushed.
But, at church last night, it happened. You know when you feel like the pastor is actually looking at you when he's talking?. I had that feeling. To paraphrase, "stop holding on to the past. It wasn't as great as you think it was. Move into the present." Funny. I didn't even realize I might be holding too tightly to something. I was holding on to past lives. Not just one, but several - taking the good from different seasons. The "at home" mom stage, the "great job, close to home" stage, and the "when I was thinner" stage.
So, it appears I'm a mess. Time to re-surrender my life and start anew. Does anyone else have to do this so often? Just about every day for me...YIKES. Maybe someday, I'll actually get it for a few days at least.
Challenge for Today: Enjoy! Relax! Let go! Live in the moment! What is God doing today?
Easter is truly the day I hold on to rebirth, resurrection of great things, and a sense of new beginnings in the air. I'm in a mental place where I feel God moving and I'm still not sure of His direction. A simpler life is what I miss. You know, when walking and biking were a big part of the day. When my house was clean and I wasn't as rushed.
But, at church last night, it happened. You know when you feel like the pastor is actually looking at you when he's talking?. I had that feeling. To paraphrase, "stop holding on to the past. It wasn't as great as you think it was. Move into the present." Funny. I didn't even realize I might be holding too tightly to something. I was holding on to past lives. Not just one, but several - taking the good from different seasons. The "at home" mom stage, the "great job, close to home" stage, and the "when I was thinner" stage.
So, it appears I'm a mess. Time to re-surrender my life and start anew. Does anyone else have to do this so often? Just about every day for me...YIKES. Maybe someday, I'll actually get it for a few days at least.
Challenge for Today: Enjoy! Relax! Let go! Live in the moment! What is God doing today?
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