Well, I'm back! Two very busy weeks behind me and still struggling with a bum knee. Turns out it isn't a torn meniscus as suspected and diagnosed, but a stress fracture on the ball of my femur. Good news - no surgery needed. Bad news - takes a while to heal.
So, I find myself limited and struggling to keep myself down. It's hard to sit still, you know - I know you know! Women don't sit still well. Maybe it's because of our brain constantly going? Do we think our body must move at that speed also?
For me, it's more a confidence issue. I must prove my value by working hard or accomplishing something or seeking value in someone's eyes. I often forget how wonderfully made I am in God's eyes! Isn't it strange how we, one day, are confident in God's plans and creation of us and the next, we hear one thing from our spouse, a stranger or just a commercial and fall into believing we are worthless. God must be my source of value or I will continue in this trap.
Unfortunately, we've become a society of "fixing" each other rather than lifting each other and for me, a recovering "people pleaser", these "fixes" offered tend to throw me off balance. The reality is, we will never please a person. There will always be something they prefer we do or do better. Often it is the other person's insecurities we are working hard to fill and this is an impossible task.
A recurring prayer for me, "Lord, help me not to care what other's think about me or how they place value on my existence". My little brain struggles daily to put those requirements aside set by "religious" people restricting what God has not or the pictures of what a woman should be set before me daily by the world. I forget God calls me BEAUTIFUL! He created me. He created you. You are absolutely gorgeous in His sight! We mustn't call ugly what He has declared lovely. Don't call stupid or silly what He has named as good!
I have a friend who lives in Russia. She visited the US some years ago and I had the honor of working with her. She's beautiful, educated, confident and fun. What I most admire is her confidence - she walks in a freedom I've never seen nor enjoyed in my lifetime. Isn't it ironic we grew up thinking Russians were not free? When I think about confidence, true freedom to be who God created me, I think about my Russian friend who doesn't let other's opinions impact her beauty, her goals, or her choices. Her lifestyle is between her and God and she walks it.
Today's challenge: Think it through and make it a point to believe it. This applies to us and to our sisters around the world. How do you place value on other women? If we truly valued others, would women sleep with a married man? If we valued others, would women "bite" each other regarding their economic status? Would women abandon each other when times are tough?
So, I find myself limited and struggling to keep myself down. It's hard to sit still, you know - I know you know! Women don't sit still well. Maybe it's because of our brain constantly going? Do we think our body must move at that speed also?
For me, it's more a confidence issue. I must prove my value by working hard or accomplishing something or seeking value in someone's eyes. I often forget how wonderfully made I am in God's eyes! Isn't it strange how we, one day, are confident in God's plans and creation of us and the next, we hear one thing from our spouse, a stranger or just a commercial and fall into believing we are worthless. God must be my source of value or I will continue in this trap.
Unfortunately, we've become a society of "fixing" each other rather than lifting each other and for me, a recovering "people pleaser", these "fixes" offered tend to throw me off balance. The reality is, we will never please a person. There will always be something they prefer we do or do better. Often it is the other person's insecurities we are working hard to fill and this is an impossible task.
A recurring prayer for me, "Lord, help me not to care what other's think about me or how they place value on my existence". My little brain struggles daily to put those requirements aside set by "religious" people restricting what God has not or the pictures of what a woman should be set before me daily by the world. I forget God calls me BEAUTIFUL! He created me. He created you. You are absolutely gorgeous in His sight! We mustn't call ugly what He has declared lovely. Don't call stupid or silly what He has named as good!
I have a friend who lives in Russia. She visited the US some years ago and I had the honor of working with her. She's beautiful, educated, confident and fun. What I most admire is her confidence - she walks in a freedom I've never seen nor enjoyed in my lifetime. Isn't it ironic we grew up thinking Russians were not free? When I think about confidence, true freedom to be who God created me, I think about my Russian friend who doesn't let other's opinions impact her beauty, her goals, or her choices. Her lifestyle is between her and God and she walks it.
Today's challenge: Think it through and make it a point to believe it. This applies to us and to our sisters around the world. How do you place value on other women? If we truly valued others, would women sleep with a married man? If we valued others, would women "bite" each other regarding their economic status? Would women abandon each other when times are tough?
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